Tuesday, September 15, 2015

Turning In

Transitioning back to life in LA after yoga teacher training (YTT) weekends in the mountains is proving to be an interesting part of my journey. 
• I am beyond exhausted, yet I still feel so grounded and centered. 
• I can stay calm and peaceful and ride my yoga euphoria/ high anywhere from 1-7 days post-return. • I cling/clench (unnaturally...?) hard to the very present mindset and feelings of tranquility and knowing and peace longer than I probably should...

Waking up to the sound of rain this morning made me feel good. I felt so blessed/grateful and wicked connected with the earth. It was in a beautifully unique way that, until now, I was only able to experience when deeply integrated/ in tune with the nature that engulfs my YTT weekends. 

I had a very strong urge to honor and acknowledge Mother Earth for the rain and the plethora of abundant blessing she bestows upon me. I didn't quite know how to go about doing so- my prayers of gratitude just feel like enough. So... I busted out my Sacred Path and Medicine Cards... 
...and these are the cards I drew today: 1- PIPE. And 5- BEAR.

Perfect. :)


Tuesday, September 1, 2015

First of the month

It is pretty freaking awful to work really hard for a ridiculously small paycheck.

I age myself with anxiety at the beginning of every month because of money worries/woes.

I should be celebrating and enjoying the newness of possibilities and beginnings that I  am blessed with.
I know this.
Yet it still takes me a couple days... until all my bills/checks clear... to calm down and smile a sincere smile and relax.

I am tense and nervous.
I love seeing my bank account grow!
I hate seeing it shrink. :(

It won't always be this hard. 
I know this.
My hard work * W I L L * pay off and I will reap all the benefits of my efforts!
I know this.
...this journey sure is humbling, though.

Praying... Hoping... Wishing... Grinding... Every day. 


amen.