First of the month

It is pretty freaking awful to work really hard for a ridiculously small paycheck.

I age myself with anxiety at the beginning of every month because of money worries/woes.

I should be celebrating and enjoying the newness of possibilities and beginnings that I  am blessed with.

I know this.

Yet it still takes me a couple days... until all my bills/checks clear... to calm down and smile a sincere smile and relax.

I am tense and nervous.

I love seeing my bank account grow!

I hate seeing it shrink. :(

It won't always be this hard. 

I know this.

My hard work * W I L L * pay off and I will reap all the benefits of my efforts!

I know this.

...this journey sure is humbling, though.

Praying... Hoping... Wishing... Grinding... Every day. 

amen.