OITNB

I was all about this show...until yesterday.

There are a few, very specific things in movies and TV shows that cause me to have a physical reaction to what I'm seeing. 

'A physical reaction' as in a migraine... or feeling dizzy/light headed/out of breath... or nauseous... or fainting... or instant diarrhea (weird, I know)... or throwing up. 

'Things' such as senseless violence and/or torture for sport - a la 'Gladiator'; and any kind of rape scene.

Don't get me wrong- I love me a good action/adventure movie. The more explosions and suspense the better! The good guy fighting (and beating!) the bad guy - hell yes! Go Good Guy! The underdog battling hard and winning the day! Whooo! YEAH! But when it comes to hand-to-hand, bare knuckled, bloody and gory fighting for someone else's entertainment - without just cause - I cannot handle it. It physically makes me ill.

Confession: I have never watched 'Gladiator' from start to finish. I could barely get through the first 10 mins. It made me nauseous and I threw up. I didn't even know I could do that until I started to watch 'Gladitor.' The guy I was dating at the time was just as surprised as I was that I had such a strong reaction to the beginning of the freaking movie. Hahaa! There went a fun date night... down the toilet... oh well.

I have never been the victim of rape. The amount of evil in the intent to rape is what messes with my head and physically makes me ill. 

I love-love-LOVE 'Sons of Anarchy'. Yet, when Gemma gets kidnapped and repeatedly gang raped by the neo-nazi skinheads, I crapped my pants (not literally...but I totally lost my sh*t). I was sick for several DAYS after I saw that episode and I had to take a long, long break from watching SOA because of that episode/season. I just could not handle it.

I was very curious about 'Bates Motel' when it first appeared. But the part early on where a big, scary man chases Mrs. Bates around the kitchen and then violently rapes her when he catches her, f*cked with my head so much that I passed out. I lost my breath then lost some consciousness. It was just too much. 

Enter the highly-anticipated S3 of OITNB.

Kudos, E9: you made me throw up+. One rape scene just wasn't enough... right? You had to do two. And having a minute to breathe between the rape scenes was asking too much, wasn't it? Because they just had to be back-to-back. Wow. I can't even...

That's it for me.

I'm done.

This show is off my radar.

...which sucks because I love it! I want to know how everything goes!

But I can't.

I need some time.

Those rape scenes... they were just too much for me. I still feel so sick.

:(